Noreaster

Its pouring outside. Noreaseter it is.

I am taking a hiatus --- I was at the office until 11:30 pm (starting at around 10am) without the ability to leave on Friday and now I am dead on just doing nothing. I didn't even get out of bed until 3pm.

I am watching bad television. tons of it. i love new york. what can we worse than "you are faker than faux fur."

So I definitely need a vacation--- cause its weird to like go from driving at 90 mph and then hit the brakes and start riding at 20 mph. If I was doing anything but "nothing" today in my pajamas in the rain, I would be miserable. But tell me I feel anxious a bit. Not relaxed. I feel a bit uneasy. Should I clean my room? Should I wash off the drinks that were spilled on me last night? My friend Mary Anne laughed at me in Boca cause I have this amazing ability to do nothing. (well me and gabe). So I should be enjoying it, I should be revelling in it. The nothing ness.

New York makes me uneasy. Maybe its law school. Maybe its my personality at 25. Who knows?

Hahahah, so I should blog one day about things that make me happy, but when I am happy I don't feel like blogging.

Okay I have no idea who reads this anymore but me cause its so damn boring. New Orleans will bring new adventures and less pyschosis?

Oh, one last thing --- last night I was trying to talk to this guy from Australia, and he started talking about how individualistic and interesting he is because he listens to Portishead and Massive attack and not RnB and Hip Hop and I realized he though I was this totally ditzy superficial girl. Wow. What an absolute 180. Normally I am trying to show people the fun carefree side of me cause I do all this serious work. The whole situation made me so angry --- I spend all this time, like ALL MY TIME, working my ass off on deep things, so much so that i don't want to talk or think about them on my time offf, which I haven't done so successfully this semester. I don't need to prove to anyone that I am deep. For the love of god. I don't even want to be. I also don't have the energy to impress or prove myself to anyone. Lame.