I am not weak!

I am not weak and I am not a failure I don't need to be dissapointed in myself.

Have I buckled under the stress? Perhaps! I don't want to admit it but I think i have. Can I not handle it? You know I think if any aksed me if I wanted to study all the time and be hardcore that I would say absolutely NOT! I want to be balanced, I want to enjoy life. For some reason, with the work I am doing, for the causes I care about, I think I should be a work-a-holic. And if I am not engaged and passionate and working my tail off at every minute for it, I am somehow a failure. I am failure for lettting it all get to me. I am a failure for wanting to choose something less intensive. I am failure for feeling disengaged.

Personal happiness is just as important as individual acheivement - I swear! I am not weak. I take on A LOT. I give everything 120%! Who cares if other people can do more than me, why I am comparing? I can only give what I have the capacity to give.

Why do I let other people make me feel like I am weak? WHY WHY WHY? Okay I am going to sit in my little room and ignore the world and just do what needs to get done.