Wednesday, July 23, 2008

Purple Rain

So last Wednesday, I had this perfect day -- a day where I had no responsibilities and I was with two of closest friends in Bostons and we were just brainstorming ways to waste time and relax. We ate for hours, had ice cream and tea, sat by a river, talked about 90s RnB and Hip Hop like the stars were our best friends. And my friend was housesitting at this awesome apartment with one of those ridiculous couches that is three sides of a rectangle and should only fit in large suburban homes with children of at least :30five. And after spending an entire hour trying to figure out how to make one of the 4 DVD players (i am being literal, playstation, x box, single DVD player, 5 DVD player) both PLAY, have SOUND, and show picture through the wiring and VIDEOS we watched one of my favorite films Sex and Lucia and it was awesome.

BUT what was even more awesome was that once we had resigned ourselves to sleeping, and i felt totally dazed by the heat and state of relaxation of summer --- I found Purple Rain on television and stayed up until 3am watching it despite having to wake up at 6:t30 Am for a flight. It was amazing and FUSE has these hilarious pop up boxes that says things like "in Kanye West's song Stronger -- when he says when "Prince was on Appollonia" he was referring to this moving.

I hadn't watched the entire movie since i was so young that i never had the patience to get through the whole thing, but this time I absoluteley mesmerized. And I do claim to be a true Prince fan and all, but let's face it its a horrible 80s movie BUT I was completely enraptured. PRINCE was this alienated non-conformist whose emotions he couldn't control but who capture the attention of a crowd on stage so completely. And since last week,I can't stop picturing the movie in my head. Its so bizarre. I remember joining BMG for the sole purpose of getting Prince's 3CD disc set and i was so happy when I found the lining and read all about his story. I wikipedia-ed the movie and any critic's assessment i could. I took my Dad's Saab to the Germantown Public Library and listened to When Doves Cry at a volume that is unheard of. I do think its a bit self congratulatory to compare myself to the maverick genius of Prince but there was something really honest in Purple Rain too that I related to in this ridiculous way.

Perhaps its because in being home I've turned into a teenager as I've sifted through every single memento, diary, and music collection I kept at that time. I've been a journy of re-discoverying myself, re-constructing myself. And as a teenager, I imagined myself at one with artist -- i guess let's be honest my obsession with Mary J Blige's Growing Pains this year is no different. I am sorry that so much has revolved around myself as a teenager recently, its like I am still trying to find the answer to my unhappiness and its like, just like in my lawyer role, I am trying to make sense of all the evidence, to order it, to catalogue it, to sort through what has meaning and whats extraneous.

I promised to put my personal health before the bar this summer but I am now having the impending doom of failure before me. So I am closing my closet, trying to sort through the awful bureacratic nonsense of insurance claims, bar loans, flight tickets, outstanding bills -- all which I had put off as I asked myself to disregard my adult life in favor of deep thoughts and tunnel vision studying.

And I get to finally runaway next Saturday. And then I will run even further in September --- and here's the best part. I don't ever have to come back.

3 comments:

Anonymous said...

Hi Bloggy McBloggy! I miss you! Please don't run away forever! You know what????? I do the SAME THING, except I don't compare myself to Prince or Mary J.! I compare myself to Jesus! Hahahahahah!!

Bananarchist said...

have you seen that album backside where prince is naked on top of a white pegasus? i don't remember what album it is and i can't find it online!! i swear it exists. it's amazing.

Bananarchist said...

oh wait i found it: http://i37.photobucket.com/albums/e65/ccorcoran/princepegasus.jpg