Just Breathe

Hey Folks,

With the boy's departure and my period of extensive travel over, I am now ready to return to the routine of Chiang Mai life, which i am actually looking forward too... to indulge in the simplicity in a run up to the end feels perfect, i am happy to be back.

but i am freaking out at the same time
- i need to stop slacking and tackle my CEDAW Shadow Report with a writing intensity
- i need to exercise everyday and keep up with my personal training to benefit my body and get rid of the gut and back fat
- i need to do massive amounts of job applications ASAP, to meet dealines, etc.
- i need to take care of personal upkeep stuff like dentist and women's doctor, etc...

and i am scared shitless
i am scared the boy's safety and i am scared for my future and this job app process. a little concerned about money and also about potential depression..... rejection rejection rejection.

focus reena focus. and just breathe. once i start accomplishing a few of these things, i think i'll feel better. no f-ing off. i am already f-ing off. stop f-ing off Reena.