Anxiety-Free

the most important revelation i have made since adjusting back to chiang mai... is what i love above all else here is the fact that i don't get anxious or stressed. rarely. i have little to get disgruntled with. my commute is 5-7 minutes long, on a motorbike, by far the most convinient way to travel. i have deadlines at my job, but i do my work 82% of the time in working hours, unless there is travel or an activity involved. if it can't get done in that time, than it will be done later. my friends are accessible and around, and rarely do we ever have to make plans, just a text message will suffice, and word usually goes around, so multiple invites are never necessary. food is cheap, alcohol is cheap, and clothes are cheap, so not much spending i do, do i have to beat myself over needing to save more. well, nothing really. the most guilty i feel is if i order coffee out every day for a shocking $1.50, or get a $6 massage instead of $3. warm weather and cute cheap clothes mean it doesn't take much effort to look good, and its no issue if i don't want to bother either.

of course i still get tired, also work-related travel can sometimes be taxing, or too many meetings, or not being able to speak Thai can be challenging, but all in all that stuff is just a byproduct of being alive, human being. my life is good. its really good. but most importantly i feel good. i don't need to be insanely happy in each moment, or entertained, or doing something meaning, cause the overall pic just works. it works.