It's here. I've still quite a bit more work to do, but I retreat into my hermit-like state in order to complete it. It will all officially be over in two weeks time.
I slept until 1:30 pm today. Old Demons Die Hard.
But that little bit of community and friendship I finally found, after three years of searching and longing --- its all over.
I am not of the sentimental sort. And I am not scared of the return to an assertion of inpendence and the collateral lonliness. Its as familiar as the familariity I finally got.
And every major transition I've undergone has been anti-climactic.
So I just need to put one foot in front of the next and keep walking to the next phase. I've got nothing to truly look back at. But I can't yet be excited to look forward with the burden of production left on me. And perhaps the lack of full recovery does scare me.
So I guess I just do as before, breathe in breathe out.
Open the book and start and let the time wash over me until the end.
Just don't think.
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sorry i'm such a bitch!
you're really not scared?? of the return to an assertion of independence and the collateral loneliness?
i'm terrified. teach me.
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