Whatever!!!

u know when u reach that day where you finally get tired of being so hard on yourself and you are just like, whatever.
last year i felt like everything was my fault. i completely blamed myself for my lack of personal satisfaction with law school culture, i blamed myself for putting myself in an environment that caused me to be be insecure, i blamed myself for not being able to alter the interactions & make them positive or please those around me.
now I say WHATEVER!!!

Whatever whatever whatever.

I try my hardest. I am good person. I have tons of wonderful meaningful relationships in my life. I am happy with my home. I am happy with my family. I am happy with my work.

There is a degree of personal dissatisfaction I have with the way the factors add up in my life right now. But whatever. Its life. It might not be perfect. But I refuse to hate on myself for that. And I refuse to let whatever parts of human behavior I observe that I don't admire bring me down and turn me into a person i don't like.

Life has never been perfect on my three month stints around the world. I never expected it to be. I have developed a huge degree of personal strength in my life. Those experiences build a part of me. But more than that - they are the reality I seek for myself. This (law school) is just a temporary experience I have to withstand. Not the other way around.