DONE - with school, finals ARE over!!! I successfully studied in a extremely disciplined manner this year (no all-nighters like undergrad or skippin school to avoid deadlines like high school). I am proud of myself for investing myself academically EVEN though I must say academics is still not who I am and hurrah to a well balanced life second semester which included dancing (performance style) , leadership, and lots of weekend getaways and conferences.
DONE - with the East Village, my one year reign in Manhattan is over and although I loved my little neighborhood, it was time for a change and I am looking forward to living in the beautiful place in Brooklyn (Clinton Hill that I have just moved int). I am done with the small studio and I am asking my Mom for a bed for my birthday -- next year will be the first year i will be sleepin on a real bed in over THREE years!!!!
DONE- with the drama, this year i successfully avoided the overt, life-consuming drama that seems to have been ever-present in my life, if it wasn't my apartment burning down or an ulcer in my esophagus, or strange case of vertigo, or slashing my knee open, or coral reef rash, or deaths of close ones -- I have had one year of smooth sailing.... and well I doubt i am done with future drama cause shit always happen but am proud of defeating the drama for year.
DONE with the self-doubt, i am so over law school neuroses for the time being and looking forward to the zen i am exploring now, for the summer and throughout the rest of law school career.
I am ready to return to India, to get to re-explore the Indian part of my identity, to re-establish a place for myself once again in the NGO community and re-discover the work that drives me, fine tuning my role within it and re-evaluating my options for the future.
This year has been challenging, often in a way I didn't appreciate or a way I didn't necessarily value as progression. The stability I anticipated was going to be a healthy change was undercut by the intense and unhealthy culture here. I am proud to say that I have come to terms witj my experience and do think I have grown
-- I often travel and do difficult things because the way it pushes me, but in some ways jumping from new experience to next every three months became easier - so doing what the "risk-adverse" people do by going to law school was actuallly more difficult of challenge for me because I had to unravel a world I didn't like at first glance (or even second or third), and carve out a more permanent place for myself.
And in some ways i am done done done, but in reality I have just begun...
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