ten years

for 10 years i was strong........ right? now i am weak again. and will anyone ever trust me to be strong? its hard for me to trust anyone lean to hard, the weight is too strong i remember the burden the resentment the frusturation just get better no one is in it for the long haul and when you cry for help and your voice goes unheard i am angry i am resentful......... i didn't need to be in this state this weekend i could have been enjoying this interlude where i am off deadline i could have been having fun instead i just need a babysitter and i feel like i am avoiding responsibility rather than enjoying the lack thereof in this moment. and i am so so so soo so so exhausted. i can't make a decisision i can't type these words i can\t be left alone